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Gay Crackhead Confessions 
11:29am 09/11/2006
  I've entertained submissive fantasies since my early teens, but they probably would've stayed in their little box forever if I hadn't messed up and experimented with crack cocaine.

Baby, that let it all out. Forget for a moment the pleasure involved in such a high. What really blasted through me was this wild, uninhibited sense of LUST. And it was mostly of a decidedly gay-submissive variety. Still dunno whether that was just my closet submissiveness asserting itself, or the result of discovering that crack had also robbed me of any hope of a hard-on.

The killer of it was that I was surrounded by other men, generally bad-news amoral scoundrels. They were all black, and a passing glance at their trousers was enough to confirm that most of them enjoyed the fringe benefits of being so. Were one of these dudes to have figured out my momentary vulnerability and capitalized upon it, he might well have crippled me.

And as long as I was up there on that high, I would've enjoyed every minute of it.

One of them came close. He caught on that *something* was on my mind, and timed his questions perfectly. Caught me alone, and made sure I was high as a kite before he asked me anything. And I pretty much stuttered out everything he could want to know about it.

My mouth lost its virginity that night. My bottom was saved by two things: He couldn't keep a hard-on, and he was 'waaaaay more interested in using this development to trick me out of my remaining crack, rather than nailing me.

Since then, the fantasies have gone into overdrive. Suppose it had gone differently? Suppose I'd been nailed, or even gang-banged? And kept high throughout the event, so that I'd have had no choice but to love it?

Suppose someone had brought along a little disposable camera, and gotten some pictures of the event? I probably wouldn't have minded. Again, those inhibitions had left town. From there, it would've taken very little effort to find out where I work. And then?

And then, as long as those pictures didn't ever surface, they'd have had me for sure. I'd have had to *keep* going back and putting out for them. I'd probably be there right now.

High as a kite. Taking a huge dick down my throat, and another one up my ass at the same time.

And loving it.

I'd be a full-blown addict, too, of course. Price of admission, I suppose.
11:58pm 24/05/2006
  Hi all!

Just wondered if anyone knew anything about the LSD experience whilst on SSRI anti-depressants...

...i've heard they lessen the effect of LSd, so is it worth buying acid still?

Anyone have any experience in this area?

thanx, sanguine
      1 hallucination -  hallucinate
05:25am 12/03/2005
mood: indescribable
holy fuck. tonight changed my life. forever.
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09:05pm 08/02/2005
  Hey, my friend is starting a t-shirt business and his shirts only cost 7 dollars. Here is a picture of them below. If your interested, email Dysfnktion14@aol.com. His name is Dan. Thanx

      2 hallucinations -  hallucinate
05:03pm 25/01/2005
mood: high
I am very high and after I help my friend Steve move we are getting more high and then tonight it is my friends birthday and we are celebrating by getting more high!

      2 hallucinations -  hallucinate
01:58am 14/01/2005
mood: high
i am like a kite: very high!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Know Your Facts: 
01:51am 08/01/2005
mood: tired
I love when he hits the elephant and it just walks away.... hahah. Damn.

Interesting facts according to IMDB:

-During the hallucination sequence in the cave, the pyrotechnic charges underneath the mushroom-shaped rock are visible as it elevates, as is the wire lifting it up.

-Author Paddy Chayefsky disowned this movie.

-Arthur Penn was originally slated to direct but resigned.

-The book was partially based on dolphin researcher John Lilly, who invented the isolation tank, and first started taking drugs while "tanking".

-Film debuts of both William Hurt and Drew Barrymore.
      6 hallucinations -  hallucinate
01:26am 07/01/2005
mood: high
Welcome to Altered States. I am your Mod. Let's Begin.
06:13pm 07/01/2005
mood: inspired!
My favorite part personally is when he turns into a monkey and hits the elephant in the head with a rock. This shows how versatile and clever Indian tribes and magical mushrooms can make people.
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